The Hand You Are Dealt...

 Matthew's birthday dinner

It's no mystery that life is hard. We are dealt with cards that are sometimes seemingly perfect and full of optimism and hope. Sometimes, we are dealt with cards that are hard to read and even hard to hold on to. Like a diagnoses, for example. Or a death. Or a divorce. It is important, I think, to accept the cards that you have, whatever they may be.

So, that is where I woke up emotionally this morning. I am utterly, ridiculously, in love with someone that is not perfect. We are not in a perfect situation. We have been dealt a hand of cards that are challenging at times, hurtful at times, frustrating and hard to hold on to. All because of one thing...distance. If it weren't for 1000 miles, we would be the most blissfully happy couple in the world. Sure, we had a rocky start, middle and almost end. But...I feel like we are connected in a way that you don't find often, if ever. To sever that connection does nothing but make me feel like half of a person. You see, not only is our hand all of the things above, it is also comforting, peaceful when we are actually together, loving, and a little piece of Heaven in my eyes.

I can't, don't want to, and won't give up on this love. I don't know how I am going to make it through the rest of this distance but I am optimistic this morning that we will make it together in one piece, holding hands. God willing...


On a side note, Lily is doing amazingly well on her PING! She feels very special to have it and thinks it is very, very cool. Now if only we could get those pesky numbers under control! Lots of changes to be made. We got an email from the Animas CDE with some good, aggressive suggestions so we shall see!