I am a work in progress. I am always thinking, learning, searching...trying to find the happiest I can be. I have discovered that part of the problem with me in the past is that I have a hard time making decisions for myself. Little things, like what furniture to buy, is easy for me. Big things, like where to live or what job to take, not so easy. I ask everyone that will listen their opinion. I have done this my whole life...with everything.
I have come to realize in the past few months that I need to trust myself, even if no one else trusts me to make good decisions. I am in charge of me. I know what is best for me. I have made some really hard decisions in the last few months that not many people have agreed with initially. They appear to be bad decisions to the blind eye but not to my heart. I am proud of myself because it has been hard. The more I ask for opinions from everyone around me, the harder it is to see what I want clearly. My mind gets skewed by what I think I should do for everyone. And they just love me...that's all. Not one person means harm, I know that. It is me. I ask for an opinion and then I get confused and second guess myself. Maybe this is human nature or maybe it's just my nature.
All I know is that I am truly happy. I am happy in life. I have great kids, a great job, the best family, great friends, and a very loving man in my life. Sounds crazy, right? It's true. I am just happy. I am also proud that I made these decisions on my own, after a lot of thinking, soul searching, research, etc.
I sold my house. And I put an offer on a new one. In the burbs. Fingers crossed!!