Clarity...

clar·i·ty

noun \ˈkler-ə-tē, ˈkla-rə-\

: the quality of being easily understood
: the quality of being expressed, remembered, understood, etc., in a very exact way

: the quality of being easily seen or heard

I realized something this afternoon. I have absolute clarity. There is no question. I am totally lucid. For the first time...maybe ever...I am completely clear-headed. I don't even know what to do with that thought, or feeling. I have lived most of my life with some sort of chaos. Then it hit me at the gym, on the elliptical. I am not unhappy, with pretty much anything. That is HUGE. That requires a beer.

I am married to the love of my life.

I have three beautiful children and that is finally complete.

I love my job...like LOVE it love it. 

We have a beautiful house and a beautiful life.

I have awesome friends and I live on a street where I can walk around the circle and stop at each house and have a beer. The girls can ride bikes safely.

My family...we have all come so far in being a family.

My new family (i.e. Matt's family) is all I have ever longed for...brothers and a new sister, a crafty and ultra cool MIL that I can shoot the shit with.

I wouldn't change a thing about this life. And I wouldn't change a thing about the life I had because it led me here. I learned. I grew. I came out okay. I came out better. 

I was reading through some of my old blogs and what an amazing journey I was on. It is a journey that so many people go through and stumble through...how you come out on the other end is what matters. I took a lot of criticism for being so "public" about it all. That's who I am though and I am happy I was, because I learned from that too.

Clarity is awesome and powerful and comforting. My little heart is so full! Damn 40 rocks.