A lot happened this week and I haven't fully explained how amazed I am that when you think you are being handed shit to deal with, you might actually be getting a gift of sorts.
Tuesday morning, I woke up, got the kids off to school, kissed the boys (my dogs) and left the house. I had a meeting with my CEO at 9 AM. I was working a contract job doing recruiting/marketing for a pediatric therapy group. I was supposed to go on permanently the next day. I was worried sick about Reilley and had a vet appointment for him that evening. The vet had called and asked me to bring him in earlier since he sounded so bad. I couldn't.
I was working somewhere that had zero flexibility. Zero. I literally punched a clock, even at lunch. I am not accustomed to this type of environment and didn't care for it much. Well, my CEO laid me off that morning. They were eliminating my position because of the budget cuts in healthcare. They were laying off several people and closing most open positions. Figures.
So, I left. I immediately went home and got Reilley. He was all I could think about. I got the news of his cancer one hour and five minutes later. I got laid off and found out I had to put my dog down all before lunch on Tuesday. This has become normal for me as of late...to just have it all rain down. It's cool. I am a strong person and I can handle it. I was pretty pissed at the world though, I must admit.
Well, things were not going well Wednesday morning when I was saying my goodbyes to my beloved pet of 13 years, when I got an email that I was praying I would get. I was getting an offer from a company that I had been speaking with for some time. It is an amazing and exciting and lucrative chance to do something that I absolutely LOVE. I get to network, build relationships, and put my overly-energetic self to good use doing something that will not only be challenging, but VERY rewarding! The news couldn't have come at a better time either.
So, as my emotions calmed some...the girls and I started to adjust to life without Reilley. Scooter is adjusting too and is getting more attention and love than he ever has. Things were going along pretty well. I have been very frustrated at diabetes. Frustrated at all the change we are all facing constantly. Just frustrated in general. Then, I get on Facebook and learn that another life has been lost. Another innocent girl that diabetes robbed of life. I cried for a while when I read her mother's words. And I made my girls sleep with me last night. I slept so close to Lily that I could feel her heart beating next to me.
I awoke this morning to rain. The sweet, soft sound of rain on my windows. It was dark and so peaceful in the bedroom with my beautiful girls sleeping next to me and the dog at my feet. It was then that I realized I have been looking at this week all wrong. I am lucky. I am so lucky to have what I do. And I am lucky that life works itself out in mysterious ways at times.
You see, I am happy that I was laid off on Tuesday since that gave me time to be with Reilley and mourn that loss. It gave me the time I need to focus on my family and keep us together. I am happy that I found out I am getting an offer on Wednesday so that I could really focus on us and not be worried about finding a job. I am able to do this with a clear mind. I am happy that I didn't have to quit my other job as I thought I would have to do. I didn't want to leave anyone in a bind. I am happy that I am getting the job that I wanted so badly...one that I will be able to do things that I love doing and make really good money while doing it. I am tired of not being able to make ends meet at times.
When it rains it pours. This is true. But sometimes, that is a beautiful thing if you just see it in the way it is meant to be seen. I have never claimed to be a religious person and not sure I ever will be but this is definitely my version of God.
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Congrats on the job!
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God's timing is amazing...
Having zero flexibility is common for so many working moms. And it can work, but unless you have a strong support system, you will probably find yourself in a position where you will lose your job. So I am thrilled for you that you found a position that lets you work and take care of Lily at the same time. Not an easy task. You were at a low point,and God sent manna from heaven. Sorry about the loss of your pet; I believe he is sitting right by God's side and you will see him again.
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