I am about to kill diabetes. Well, I would kill it if it were tangible. That in itself is not fair...to have to fight a war against something that you can't see or touch or anything else. This year has wreaked havoc on Lily's numbers! She has always been very well controlled and still is to a certain degree but all of the switching from the pump to MDI and back to the pump has us baffled and grasping for some normalcy.
Did I just say that? There is no normalcy with diabetes. I am cracking myself up over here!
We are all over the place though so I am going to grab the reins and reel this jackwad of a disease back in. She was high when I went to bed last night so I corrected and she declined and awoke at 62. At lunch at school, she was a tad high and when she got off the bus, she was 43. And lethargic. And sweating profusely. That hasn't happened before. My hands started trembling while I was trying to check her after treating her to make sure she had come up. She had. And she is fine now. Thank God.
I, however, am not. I am pissed off at diabetes today. Totally. And I have had a very rough week with my dog dying. I feel like I am not getting what I need emotionally right now either. The cup is running empty today and I am tired of it all. I found a paper Lily wrote for school on Wednesday and it was about how much she loves her dogs but "Reilley is dying today." Big. Huge. Sigh. I wish I could take any pain from my girls.
BUT...I worked out! I worked out hard and it felt like pure Heaven! I crave healthy food constantly. Some of my favorite foods are quinoa, fresh veggies, and baked fish. I actually don't like fried food or fast food. It makes me feel sick so I don't know why I have eaten it the past few months. I am going to start taking the time for myself that I need to cook and exercise. Two of my favorite things in the world to do! This mommy needs some self-motivation this weekend!
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